I expressed before I left
That love would miss me
While I was gone
What I didn’t anticipate
Was missing love…
I reminisce on times
As fine as old wine
That I with
Tear smeared eyes
Places behind me
I vowed then
As I can recall
That it would be a while
Before I returned
In hopes that at that time I would stay
Perhaps forever …
Love recognizes me
Yet I seem as a distant cousin
To whom she knew before
You see I have gracefully
Matured
We speak
She recalls times I
Had gotten her mistaken
Painfully taken aback buu the lies I was told
Famous over reactions
Tragic tactics took hold
Of my mind…
I reveal to her my new
Self-love and compassion
I unveil for her
This new strength
That prohibits e from wallowing
In that unbearable state again
Where lust masquerades as love
Or comes solely
From one end…
She opens an album
Portrayed is me being selfish
I remember pain pushing me
To vindictive and possessive
Ways
She had me confused and twisted I remember saying "baby
My love is unconditional"
But it had conditions
I remembered the countless uneducated
Decisions
And I
Chuckle
While fooling with the consequence
Of young love
It’s a wonder I'm still living
Love looks longingly at me
Eyes wide open I
See I owe her an apology
A lot of regrets I blamed on her
Could actually be credited
To stupidity
And countless other entities
When I stuck it out
Seeking bare minimum contentment
Only to crash head on with
Resentment
When he balled up his fist to prove a point
And I used an open hand
To prove another
When I though it was love
That buried
My voice six feet under
When I walked away
Fro that catastrophic disaster
Claiming it would be
An icy summer
Before I ever gave my heart to another
I am sorry
But
You know firsthand
The disposition of my situation
Wasn't sunny
I felt taken
My Jon left nightmares and scars
In lieu of money
I tried to confess to you
But my tongue was still healing
From constantly being bitten
My heart needed to recoup
From being used and misused
And here I am once again
But now
I have thrown malice and hatred
To the wind
Love,
You'll be proud to know
I'm back on track
I know you've missed me
I know our quick
Low profile visits
Don't provide you with
The fulfillment you so truly need
I'm here to reinstate that
Faith you once had in me
In hopes of proving
I am once again worthy
Of you
My new knowledge
Has give me a different vision
And wisdom
From my past memories
Has me privy to explore
This new position
And now
Love
That naïve girl you knew is no more
You see
She has gracefully matured
And I knew long before I left
That love would miss me
While I was gone
What I didn’t anticipate
Was missing love
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